Table For Two

my husband and I are passionate about music. He is much more talented than I am, but I think we are equally as passionate about it.
It's amazing to me how one song can take you back to a moment in your life. I have several songs that lead me to different places.
I suppose the best thing that has ever been created is what's called "A mixed tape". My generation might not know what that is, but it would basically mean to put together a play list on your iPod. The creation that I am talking about, however, is a genuine mixed cassette tape. One that is labeled "Sunshine's Mix" or something along those lines.
There are several songs that I would have on my personal mix to represent my life, but there is one specific song that has been there for at least 7 years.
Caedmon's Call is one of the most creative, down home Christian bands that I have ever heard. I'm usually not a huge fan of "Christian" music, but Caedmon's Call steals a place in my heart. They have a song called "Table for Two" on their album entitled 40 Acres. (Side note: it is well worth the 9.99 you will pay to download the entire album on iTunes)
There is a line in the song that is constantly resounding in my heart and I feel like it is getting stronger.

The line goes like this:

"Well this day's been crazy
But everything's happened on schedule
from the rain and the cold
To the drink that I spilled on my shirt
'Cause You knew how You'd save me
before I fell dead in the garden
And You knew this day
long before You made me out of dirt

And You know the plans that You have for me
And You can't plan the end and not plan the means"

Wow. That's some powerful stuff. He KNOWS the plans that He has for me and He can't plan the end and not plan the means. Wow. He really has my life in His hand. He really wants me to make my own choices, but wants me to consult Him when I am deciding which way to go.
Just like any good father, He wants what's best for me.

*break*

In an attempt to be transparent, I will say this. There have been moments over the last few years, months, weeks, and even days when I wonder why we are in Lebanon, IN. We have grown to absolutely love this place and the people who are here. We have a genuine passion to see the people here come to know Jesus in a very real way and we are honored that we get to be part of the process.
We know that there is so much in store for our lives and we believe we are exactly where we are supposed to be.
Even with all that is going on, it is so tempting to think "what's next?" If it's this good now, how can it get better? We never want to look at this as our training ground, but as our actual battle. We want to give everything we have to the people here and right now. However, because we have seen how God works, we know that there is so much more to come.
Do you ever get the feeling that something great is going on around you? It's almost like an anxious feeling, but it's really like the floodgate is about to open. It's almost like you're on the verge of something really great, but you just have no idea what it is. That's what we've been feeling.

We (I) are (am) learning the difference between contentment and complacency. We are begging God to help us be content and in the same breath begging Him to never let us grow complacent.

Thanks to Caedmon's Call, I am reminded that as long as we are walking in obedience, then every thing is happening right on schedule. I am also reminded that He really cannot plan the end and not have a plan for all of the things that come in between.

I am learning that I am "CALLED" to live out my life on a day to day basis in love and truth. I am learning what it means to have PURE RELIGION: to love the poor and the widows. I am learning that it is absolutely better to speak up and out against injustice than to choose to take a seat on the side lines.

Through the thousands of mistakes I make on a daily basis, I am realizing that I am responsible to walk in love and obedience, taking risks, and having a profile of one who is obesessed.

Excuse me while I go clean the coffee stain from my shirt,
Sunshine